About Me

Don’t you hate getting anxiety attacks right as you are trying to sleep? All of a sudden you are overwhelmed with what you need to do, what you wrong today, something embarrassing you did today, problems with friends, questions about the future, and the like. And every single one of these seems to be crucial and must be solved ASAP. Then your heart is beating fast and you try to take deep breaths to calm yourself down, but you can’t slow your breathing.

Well, I hate it.

From 2nd Corinthians:

5:7 “We live by faith, not by sight.”

Short, sweet, to the point. I’m not sure why it stood out to me so much, but it did. I like that the whole verse is 7 words; a pretty short verse. Makes you feel like it should be noticed and that it is important.

8:9 “For you know the faith of our Lord Jesus Christ, that thought he was rich, yet for your sakes he became poor, so that you through his poverty might become rich.”

The context of the verse talks all about how the church at Corinth were being extremely generous with giving, and as Paul says in verse 3, “I testify that they gave as much as they were able, and even beyond their ability. Entirely on their own.” I’ve been struggling with money lately. I worked for a whole year before college and saved up a decent amount for college. But, now, I realize that I do not need that much. I’ve been struggling with giving and this verse really spoke to me. Especially in verse 3 at the end when it says “Entirely on their own.” It shows how selfless the church was with their giving.

I love the Bible.

Something I’ve struggled with my whole life: Confusing myself.

Sounds weird and that’s because it is.

So, at APU there are always a lot of people running around, doing things and it rarely hard to find something to do or someone to hang out with. I love that! It gives me the feeling that I am an extrovert. I love being around people, talking, interacting, people watching, analyzing behavior. Anticipating Christmas break, I was looking forward to hanging out with friends a lot. But, now I’m home and I am relaxing and suddenly I think I’m an introvert. I realized I needed a break from people. (This is just an example. But this same situation happens even on a more day to day basis.)

I’m an optimist and I have been for a while. But, maybe my consistent optimism has gotten somewhat out of hand. Instead of making the best out of some situations, I think that I make myself believe that I currently chose and enjoy the situation I am in. Make sense? Probably not.

Woke up late

Easy final

Watched two Harry Potters

So excited for two of my friends that I almost couldn’t contain myself

Got a fantastic painting for Christmas

Get to go home tomorrow

I’m happy

Life is more than money
Time was never money
Time was never cash,
Life is still more than girls
Life is more than hundred dollar bills
And oh the town fills
Life more than fame and rock and roll and thrills
All the riches of the kings
And up in wills we got information in the information age
But do we know what life is
Outside of our convenient Lexus cages

She said he said live like no tomorrow
Every moment that we borrow
Brings us closer to the God who’s not short of cash
Hey Bono I’m glad you asked
Life is still worth living, life is still worth living

When is appropriate for someone to create a version of “Texts from last night”, a website that hosts peoples’ texts from when they were drunk which often contain sexual vulgarity, specifically for my school, Azusa Pacific University? Our motto, though arguably overused, is “God First” and in my opinion, and in all seriousness, should be taken as absolute truth. If we put “God First”, then how is it OK for our school to be associating itself with messages talking about (and I quote) “My vagina is demolished” and “u will never be as bad as me i just hooked up with a guy in the prayer chapel look whose back motherf***ers”. How is that appropriate? We are witnesses of God. Yet we are talking about all these things and laughing about them?

If someone looked at our example of a Christian, they would not be able to tell the difference between them and anyone else. We are not active witnesses of God’s love and we are in fact the exact opposite.

I’m ticked. I’m gonna go pray.

I used to know so much! Now I know so little.

My brain is being warped. How does one know when augmented and diminished chords are used within a specific minor key? Are augmented and diminished chords used in major keys too? My brain can not quite understand the patterns of music theory.